I am finally done most of my travels for this year. It’s been quite a season for me. I have been home two out of the past eight months and overall in the fall 2007 to fall 2008, I was away from home for about 7-8 months. It has been amazing. Not always easy, in fact sometimes incredibly hard, but I’ve found when things are easy they don’t count for much. I’m still busy, but at least things are more than manageable now, and most of the traveling is by choice and a pleasure.
I’ve learnt a lot about myself this year and it hasn’t all been good. But mostly I’ve leaned to embrace what I’ve got and go with it. I’ve tried to be things I wasn’t before. I’ve tried to force myself into molds that I thought were the answer. One day, in about January, it dawned on me in a profound way that I can’t fire all my cylinders while trying to be something I’m not.
Now that I am back and relatively sedentary, I hope to have some time to reflect on the past twelve months. They’ve been totally wild for me and one hell of a ride. A ride I’m happy to say I’m finally getting under control. This blog has been a lot of fun for me. It’s been a great way to get down my thoughts and feelings. You obviously write differently when writing not only for yourself, in this case I’m writing for me and about three other people. It forces you to put your thoughts in some order and to make them relatively concise. Something I am BAD at.
So now, as I ramble, I’m getting back into training and feeling happy about it. It’s another long season ahead and we’ll be racing on our home waters of Lake Banook in Dartmouth, NS next year at the World Championships. That’s a race I want to do well at. Step one, of course, is getting there. The stone has rolled down the hill, and the journey to the top has begun again.